Where no border exist between fantasy and reality

The struggle of the soul

2005-07-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

i can't breath
nor can i see
what lays ahead
all fears and pain
the experience of life
what's meant to be
but what have i learn
all pain and no gain
the battles i fought
the strength to move on
no will i live on
what's life to me?

bring forth the tears
hidden deep within
why hadnt i shown
the torture of soul
i struggled and smile
put my best show on
but deep inside
a damn i dun shove

a heart i lost
in a forgotten time
a web of fantasy
that's where i headed

under a shield
of self consciousness
what have i done
to my pitiful self

all lies no truth
what can i tell
no trust binded
that's all foretold

trapped in fear
just as said
as fear itself
is fear instead

words are just words
what's to decribe?
made to make worth
all lies sound true

the torture of soul
how unmentionable
for feelings alone
dun move the world

hide your self well
do not get hurt
for the road is still long
the journey is still hot..

another stupid poem..

The attack of the germs

2005-07-27T05:30:00.000-07:00

today i'm feeling -->
ai.. really had an awful night
i couldn't sleep well
i felt some kind of saw going dowmn my throat..
i even got the flu and stuffy nose
this really is baddd
especially when it's happening at night
where i cant rest well
and strange enough
it comes and goes..
the first minute i feel okay the next i sneezing and coughing all the way
ai.. and i absolutely lazy to touch medicine
ceh ceh
lazy to touch wat a right word to describe myself..

Oh.. the pain.. the pain

2005-07-23T07:49:00.000-07:00

this post is about yesterday.. since i didn't have the time to update it so, i did it today
my expression of the day is (or perhaps yesterday)--->
wow
i must say
yesterday;s pbsm training was pretty exhausting yet satsifying for the soul..
rather than practicing marching (left.. left.. left right left..)
we had some obstacle course
we all thought it would be like.. crawling under nets or some sort
but it was MORE tiring than we thought!!!
the most important theme in this obstacle course is teamwork
which our team did quite well ^^ proudly to say that
i even made new frens ^^
our team consist of wilson, chua, jessie, abby, steph, stella ,(too bad yun ling had to move to another group) and me ^^
our team leader was pretty , but can not ignore the fact that she is like a devilish trainer..
first we had to move the canteen long bench to the basketball court..
sounds easy enough... NOT!!
the bench is place under our thighs and 7 ppl had to move it at the same time..
talk about not enough space
i have to crounch a little
it was painful to stay in that position..
it's even worse cos our height is not the same
we really do look like caterpillars =.=
then next was..
frog jumping!!
omg..
it was so painful that i could feel as though there;s fire burning under me.. (lack of exercise i see)
then we had to spin around on one post then crab walk to a destination, my partner was steph ^^
next was erm.. tying our 7 legs together and walking together..that was so hard.. we broke the string several times..guess we can;t find our harmonious teamwork there..
then was treasure hunt.. sounds easy enough.. but the muscle pain was stopping us to move any further..
in the end, guess wat?
we've got 2nd placing in the competition le!!
when i;ve head home.. couldn't help but feel really tired so i went to sleep
yeah, SLEEP! at 6pm.. till like, 3am in the morning =.=
so lazy to go online everybody should be sleeping by then =.=

today i did went out with steph and her bro and her cousin and elaine
had quite a blast

after that was driving for me
yay for i did not get scolded
boo for the road trip had changed
it's longer and harder ai..
poor me

oh well it's in a day;s work anyhow

i finally managed to solve the problems with my main blog (http://shiyurei.blogspot.com)
and i also finally fixed steph's blog.. 'cept i hadn;t add in the song she wanted for her due to some hosting problems

i'll update from time to time.. i'll try but you know me la, so lazy XD XD

Update! update! update!

2005-07-21T10:22:00.000-07:00

My expression of the day --->
i kinda have the feeling i had something exciting that happened these few days to tell when i lack the attitude to update my entries..
definitely a blogging failure
this week has been... how would i put it..
mm... BUSY!
how often do you get me up online so late till 2-3 am in the da morning doing homework, duh, like.. NEVER!!
you;ll only find me up so late reading manga or watching anime or playing online games!
(though i must say i said bye bye to my every night 8pm must sleep routine)
so many project to do
recently, power point had been duller
it's like
my power point is the same as the rest, ...BORING!
of course, being the girl as myself
i wish for myself to stand out from the rest
(oh i must say, most of my classmates are still uncapable of using power point)
still, i wonder, seriously wonder how i could make my power point seemed interesting
then, it hit me HARD and POWERFUL!
add anime!!!!
woah
good thinking rei!
thanks to stacey who told me bout blog skins
it gave me an idea how to do power point too, other than updating my blog hahahha
applause please!

during art class,
i was the model
a model
just the tune to it sounds okay
but~!!!!
how frustrating it is to keep to one pose...
i cant hold still for 5 secs
each time i move i can hear ppl screaming 'she moved!! she moved!! my work!! argh!!!!'
or
'teacher teacher!! she wontstay still'
seriously i cant stay still
and i dun like to be treated as a monkey either
omg.. when it comes to the criticism
i tell you, i feel like b!+(h (oops? now where did i learn this word?, censored!!!!) slapping those who had nothing to good to say.. i had to smile and not make a fuss bout it... like usual (oh wat a fake world im living in!)
of course, i still did my usual ramblings to ma 'rambling partners'

ai.. in the next few hours i'll in putting on this PBSM (persatuan bulan sabit merah / st john's) uniform.. oh such pure uniform really dun suit the evil ol' me..
wonder where the school come out with this silly ideas anyway
IMO, wearing uniform unit;s uniform REALLY dun enchance your participation in clubs and activities,
it makes me wanna skip them so i could avoid utter embarassment duh!

until next step loyal blog readers! see ya next midnight!~

Seriously, KK is not that uncivilised

2005-07-17T04:31:00.000-07:00

my second expression of the day --->
it's really funny when i come across this manga (it's called 'twin story' for those who are interested in downloading this particular manga)
it's kinda surprising and really misleading in a funny sense of way
that's why i'm sharing this with all of you
i bet most of you are from kk...
since when ah, our road are crowded with cows??
it's aready mentioned that kk is a CITY!!
where did the cows come from???
omg...
we are not that uncivilised!!
yes, we;re a developing city but this is really too much..
i'm happy that our city is involved in this japanese manga, but defnitely not the way i expected it to be.. seriously, i didnt think ppl think that lowly bout us....